I talk the talk but do I walk the talk? I often ask myself this question as I continue on my journey as ‘The Power Guidance Coach’ (new branding…well old branding with a NEW meaning
. I have admitted that when I first began my coaching ‘career’ (used to hate that word LOL) 12 months ago that I saw myself journeying with thousands of other women, most were Mumma’s but there were few non mumma’s too but in all this I saw no difference because we are all ‘one’ but unique in our own journey. I’m so so so excited to have beautiful women surround me (thats you I’m talking to!). In the past I have been so resistance to ‘allowing’ women form strong, powerful & meaningful friendships…. Because of that reason alone. That when strong, powerful & meaningful relationships exists so does massive transformation, personal growth and love and acceptance.
For years I’ve hidden behind my kids. They are my safe base where everything can seem quite normal and to be honest are a good excuse for not pursuing more from my life! Not only did I hide behind my kids but also my husband! So in total its been 8 years of hiding!
I remember when it was just me. I left home at 15 to pursue my purpose and passion as a ‘horse whisper’ (even though I didn’t advertise that!). I saw so much before me. I was always striving for bigger and better things, I was going somewhere! BUT you know, I also hide behind the horses I trained. I seeked to be the best horse trainer in the world at the young age of 16… I was going to be a rock star in the horse world! People would seek me out from all over the world.
So many opportunities came, they were abundant. I was ranking in all things horsey and I was beginning to see my name in many magazines. The opportunity came for me to go to the USA and train, show, ride, work hard at what I loved…. then I began to doubt. I told myself “that I was needed right where I am now… these horses need me…” As much as I was into personal growth, as soon as something massively awesome came along like this I would shy. Find an excuse, HIDE behind SOMETHING! My mind already new the transformations that COULD take place if I was to pursue my passion.
I feel sad that I’ve put blocks in my own way. I love that saying “get out of your own way” as easy as that sounds its bloody (Aussie slang) hard to do! Its a journey NOT a destination – that is what life is about.
Fast forward to now…. I find myself mostly hiding behind my kids (imagine if they knew that… well I think they do you know). This business of mine that I’m evolving into – my Power Guidance Coaching business had just had a HUGE transformation. Massive realisations and massive purpose to move forward. I’ve deiced that “yes I deserve the energy exchange for money for my gifts and services” and “yes I want to impact the world… it’s not about the money but the money is a reward amongst many others…” and “I’m not going to be hard on myself any longer… I DESERVE this, even though people say that I should gift my gifts for free…”
I hid and hid and hid. I scared myself! I knew that I had gifts to share with others but I wondered how they would be accepted. I wondered if people even needed them! The more I hid behind my kids & marriage the more I lost myself, became sick, lacked energy… all of that and more! So not only were my kids & hubby my excuse but so was I – illness, lack of energy etc. But, like with everything, there is a breaking point… it hurt, I screamed, was suddenly more aggressive and grumpy than ever, I cried, I hated…. This was the journey of realisation. Of finding me again… I found ME HIDDEN in my wildest dreams… those dreams that I dreamed when I was a kid about changing the world (more of that in my book I’m writing ATM!) My gosh it took a lot of effort to find me. I think I have found me now… but I known that will change! Remember how I said that “life is a journey not a destination!?” – I LOVE THAT ABOUT LIFE!
So HELLO WORLD!
I’m outta hiding now! I No longer say things like “I would love to do that, but my kids need………” or thinking “Hubby would never be on board with me on that… he already thinks I’m crazy!” or hearing “You’re kids should come first you know!?” or “Maybe I’m not enough just yet… maybe I need more… training, research, encouragement etc….?”
And oh em gee does it feel awesome! I feel Freeeeeeeeeeeee! And because I’ve decided that anything is possible (it just needs a little thought and planning) that my family dynamics aligns with me. I can go out and have a glass of wine for an hour or 2 (which turned into 4)! I can say “yes, I want to go to Mexico in September to meet my badass sister!” and say “YES” to me… allowing the abundant flow of life to evolve with me as I grow and become that better person.
I know can happily, easily and loving take self portraits of myself… and I LOVE THEM!!!!! I used to only take pictures with my kids, hubby, my dogs (before all that LOL)… But now I love who I’m becoming… I am ME! I’m an individual but I am not alone!
Have you been hiding? Where did you find yourself, or maybe you’re on that journey still? I would LOVE to share this journey with you, so please comment below <3
Lets be beautiful powerful women together!




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